I have come to find that I seem to be doing life wrong. I am 27.5 years old and have a whole lot of nothing to show for it. I should be married by now and have at least 2 kids at this point and a house. I a living in the boyfriend's mom's basement and I have 3 dogs and a cat. This isn't where I wanted to be.....
I think it really hit looking as my cousin Stephanie's wedding pictures. She looked so beautiful. I wasn't able to make it to the wedding, which I think makes me more sad. Growing up we were always so close, but now we are lifetimes apart. Also reading my other cousin Shalay's blog about her first baby being due in January. I had no idea she was even pregnant. I also found out her brother and his wife are expecting a baby too.
I can't figure out what is bothering me more. The fact that everyone is living life the way it should be or it's all happening and I didn't have any idea it was going on. I am thinking it's a strong combination of both.
I miss family. I miss the closeness we all had when we were younger and forced to spend every holiday and birthday together. I hate that we have grown up and grown apart.
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
2012 In a Nutshell
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We adopted a new dog named Haizee in June. I randomly came across her on the ksl classifieds. She's nuts, but overall a great addition to our family,
We adopted a new dog named Haizee in June. I randomly came across her on the ksl classifieds. She's nuts, but overall a great addition to our family,
In October our friends Kyle and Amy were getting married in Las Vegas. So decided to make a trip out of it and stopped in Mesquite for a couple nights and Vegas a couple nights. Probably one of the best trips of the year.
In July we also had an impromptu trip to Miles City, Montana. My first trip to Montana and the longest weekend of my life. Travis had to go out there to fix a hotel's internet. We left around 8:00 on Friday night. We drove all night long, got to Miles City around 8:00am Saturday. Swam in their "natural oasis" aka a giant pond. Left around 7:00am Sunday. We drove through Yellowstone, but didn't get to enjoy it much because we were on a time crunch to get the rental car back on time. Crazy, but really fun weekend. We forgot the camera, so I don't really have any pictures of it, which is really sad.
Our family. (Missing Valory and Snickers the cat)
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Friendship or Bust
Holly cow, Thanksgiving is next week!!! This year has just flown by and I have no idea why. I don't know if it's because "the world will end on 12/21/12 or if it's just been a year full of fun stuff. It's amazing what can happen in what... like 9 months since my last post.
In the last post it was about we fixing my friendship with one of my long time friends. Well, that didn't last long at all. It only got severly worse and as of right now, there is no friendship to speak of. I can't decide how I feel about it all. I want answers, but I don't want to speak to her. I fear that if we do speak it'll all get swept under the carpet, we'll think everything is just fine for a few weeks and then all of a sudden shit will hit the fan once again. I suppose I should fill you in on everything so that way you know where I am coming from.
I will make this short and as painless as possible....
Well, pretty much us being okay was really never the case. I didn't care enough about her relationship and wasn't supportive enough so I was demoted again to just a bridesmaid. After several emails back and forth it came down to it's all about her and her needs and who gives a rats ass about my feelings, but whatever. I thought maybe I was being selfish. The Wendover trip for her Bachelorette party was a very expensive waste of time. Our group was divided and it was us and them and they were pissed at us for the entire trip. The wedding came, which was suppose to take place in Vegas, but I was informed that it was canceled, but would take place the following weeked and her aunt's house.It was all a joke. And well that was the end of it. Not much hanging out or speaking since. Now here comes the really good part. Which it's something I should have seen coming and in the back of my mind I knew it had. A picture is posted on Facebook of the happy couple at what looks like a wedding setting. I asked if they got married again, no response. So I text her and ask and she responds, "We got married in Vegas." WTF???? I was so pissed off I couldn't respond. I still don't know what to say to her. I have a ton of questions and would like an explaination, but that would require confronting her. So it comes down to do I confront her and have everything either blow up or get swept under the carpet, or do I just blow it all off and move on with my life?
I am really stuggling with what to do. I guess in a way I am in total shock about it all. How you do flush 18+ years of friendship down the drain? Not to mention taking my other so called best friend with her. Ugh it's all so stupid and I don't know why I am dwelling on it all. I either need to confront her or move on. It's really not that difficult!
In the last post it was about we fixing my friendship with one of my long time friends. Well, that didn't last long at all. It only got severly worse and as of right now, there is no friendship to speak of. I can't decide how I feel about it all. I want answers, but I don't want to speak to her. I fear that if we do speak it'll all get swept under the carpet, we'll think everything is just fine for a few weeks and then all of a sudden shit will hit the fan once again. I suppose I should fill you in on everything so that way you know where I am coming from.
I will make this short and as painless as possible....
Well, pretty much us being okay was really never the case. I didn't care enough about her relationship and wasn't supportive enough so I was demoted again to just a bridesmaid. After several emails back and forth it came down to it's all about her and her needs and who gives a rats ass about my feelings, but whatever. I thought maybe I was being selfish. The Wendover trip for her Bachelorette party was a very expensive waste of time. Our group was divided and it was us and them and they were pissed at us for the entire trip. The wedding came, which was suppose to take place in Vegas, but I was informed that it was canceled, but would take place the following weeked and her aunt's house.It was all a joke. And well that was the end of it. Not much hanging out or speaking since. Now here comes the really good part. Which it's something I should have seen coming and in the back of my mind I knew it had. A picture is posted on Facebook of the happy couple at what looks like a wedding setting. I asked if they got married again, no response. So I text her and ask and she responds, "We got married in Vegas." WTF???? I was so pissed off I couldn't respond. I still don't know what to say to her. I have a ton of questions and would like an explaination, but that would require confronting her. So it comes down to do I confront her and have everything either blow up or get swept under the carpet, or do I just blow it all off and move on with my life?
I am really stuggling with what to do. I guess in a way I am in total shock about it all. How you do flush 18+ years of friendship down the drain? Not to mention taking my other so called best friend with her. Ugh it's all so stupid and I don't know why I am dwelling on it all. I either need to confront her or move on. It's really not that difficult!
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Well, after a few awkwards hang outs and what have you, we have come to terms on the "friend situation". After a few shots of booze later, it turns out she was upset because I had told her that she shouldn't have black as a wedding color. Also, she claims that she never declared B the MOH and was upset that people had told me that. But, she did ask me to be the MOH, which of course I accepted. So we are all good again on the friend front. I know how you were all so very concerned.
So, what else is going on on the home front? We adopted a "house boy". Well really he is one of Travis's friends that came into hard times due to a jerk-headed friend/roommate. He moved in with us the begining of January. For the most part it's great having him around, but as with living with anyone, there are trials.
I have a new hobby, if you can call it that. An awesome friend of my invited me to join her family's book club. We have had two meeting so far and I am really enjoying it. I need to get better at reading the books throughout the month rather than trying to cram it all in the last week. But it's been something to look forward to every month. March's book is The Hunger Games which is coming out with a movie at the end of March that we are going to see as a group. It's so much fun!
My appearance has been on my mind a lot lately. I really need to/want to lose weight. But, for whatever reason I just can't get the motivation do it. I know what I need to change and I what I need to do, but Lazy takes over. That evil whore! I really need to so something though. I hate what I have become. I hate what I look like. I hate that my boyfriend wishes I looked how I did when I was 16. I hate how clothes look on me. I need to fix, but the words are as far as I get. How do you get motivated? How do you redesign your whole life and shake all the bad habits you have accquired? That's what I need to work and somehow some way I am going to make it happen.
So, what else is going on on the home front? We adopted a "house boy". Well really he is one of Travis's friends that came into hard times due to a jerk-headed friend/roommate. He moved in with us the begining of January. For the most part it's great having him around, but as with living with anyone, there are trials.
I have a new hobby, if you can call it that. An awesome friend of my invited me to join her family's book club. We have had two meeting so far and I am really enjoying it. I need to get better at reading the books throughout the month rather than trying to cram it all in the last week. But it's been something to look forward to every month. March's book is The Hunger Games which is coming out with a movie at the end of March that we are going to see as a group. It's so much fun!
My appearance has been on my mind a lot lately. I really need to/want to lose weight. But, for whatever reason I just can't get the motivation do it. I know what I need to change and I what I need to do, but Lazy takes over. That evil whore! I really need to so something though. I hate what I have become. I hate what I look like. I hate that my boyfriend wishes I looked how I did when I was 16. I hate how clothes look on me. I need to fix, but the words are as far as I get. How do you get motivated? How do you redesign your whole life and shake all the bad habits you have accquired? That's what I need to work and somehow some way I am going to make it happen.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
What does "Best Friend" really mean?
Fair warning.... this is a really long post just about my bitching. =^)
In other news..... I have crappy friends. We some of them seem to suck more so than the others. We really, one to be specific has really upset me and it seems she has no idea that she did, which makes it like ten time worse.
This friend is getting married in July of this year. Aside from what some may think, I am extremely happy for her. I am so happy that she found someone that loves her they way she needs to loved and makes her happy. Now, where the issue comes in is how the relationship started and how fast it has moved. But at this point in time I have accepted this.
What makes her a crappy friend is the fact that we have been friends for about 18 years. Yes over those years we were constantly inseparable and we weren't the closest, but once we reconnected, you would have never known there was any time apart. Ever since she has started dating this guy, I never see her. When I do it's never just her, he is ALWAYS there. Which, whatever, I guess when you are couple you always want to be together if you can, I guess. That really isn't the point. What I am the most upset about is that me, her best friend, the one that has known her the longest, that knows all of her secrets, and almost everything about her... is not the Maid of Honor. Which again, okay whatever, it's your wedding you can chose whoever you want to be a part of it, but the least you can do is tell me. I really shouldn't have to hear it from all the other girls.
In October, I think, we went to a bridal show to get ideas for her wedding. I asked if she was having a wedding party and she said just me and another one of our friends. No specific titles were stated. So I assumed that she wasn't having a Maid of Honor. I assumed that we were both kind of filling the role. But you know what assuming does..... So, a few days before Christmas the girls got together for dinner to exchange gifts. She, of course, flaked out. While we were all talking one friend, J, mentioned that BFF had told her that B (the friend that went to the bridal show with us) was the Maid of Honor. This not only was a surprise to me, but is was to B as well. She had no idea that this is what BFF wanted. So since this dinner BFF and I have hung out a few times and she has yet to mention it. I think that makes me this most irritated is that she doesn't have the balls to tell me that I really don't mean that much to her.
Last Saturday we, BFF, B-MOH, J, and of course Hubs, had breakfast. We were suppose to go wedding dress shopping, but she decided to cancel at the last minute and just get breakfast instead. So while at breakfast, we were talking about the wedding. I, of course, have no idea what's going on because I haven't been included in the planning at all. Due to being left out completely of my best friends wedding plans, I was a little upset. I was asked what was wrong and I really didn't want to get into it there so I said I was fine. After we left the restaurant, BFF had the guts to text me and ask if I was really okay. I responded with I've lost my best friend. Which she responded with, How? Really? You have to ask how? Hmmmmm maybe because I am not her MOH, maybe because I haven't been included in a damn thing with plans for the wedding, maybe because we NEVER talk anymore, maybe because we NEVER hang out anymore, maybe because she doesn't have the guts to be honest with me, this list could go on forever.
So now I have no idea what to do. Do I approach her and call her out or do I just let her come around? I kind of just want to say eff you have a nice life, but it's hard to just toss 18 years friendship out the window. I just don't know. This Friday the three of us (me, BFF, and B) are suppose to get dinner and "talk". I assume they are going to officially tell me that I am not MOH. I really really don't want to go. I don't want to waste anymore energy on all of this. I just want to put it behind me and move on. Ahhhhhh!!!!! I don't know............................
Thanks for reading, if you made it this far. I will keep you posted on what happens. "As the world turns, these are the days of our lives...."
In other news..... I have crappy friends. We some of them seem to suck more so than the others. We really, one to be specific has really upset me and it seems she has no idea that she did, which makes it like ten time worse.
This friend is getting married in July of this year. Aside from what some may think, I am extremely happy for her. I am so happy that she found someone that loves her they way she needs to loved and makes her happy. Now, where the issue comes in is how the relationship started and how fast it has moved. But at this point in time I have accepted this.
What makes her a crappy friend is the fact that we have been friends for about 18 years. Yes over those years we were constantly inseparable and we weren't the closest, but once we reconnected, you would have never known there was any time apart. Ever since she has started dating this guy, I never see her. When I do it's never just her, he is ALWAYS there. Which, whatever, I guess when you are couple you always want to be together if you can, I guess. That really isn't the point. What I am the most upset about is that me, her best friend, the one that has known her the longest, that knows all of her secrets, and almost everything about her... is not the Maid of Honor. Which again, okay whatever, it's your wedding you can chose whoever you want to be a part of it, but the least you can do is tell me. I really shouldn't have to hear it from all the other girls.
In October, I think, we went to a bridal show to get ideas for her wedding. I asked if she was having a wedding party and she said just me and another one of our friends. No specific titles were stated. So I assumed that she wasn't having a Maid of Honor. I assumed that we were both kind of filling the role. But you know what assuming does..... So, a few days before Christmas the girls got together for dinner to exchange gifts. She, of course, flaked out. While we were all talking one friend, J, mentioned that BFF had told her that B (the friend that went to the bridal show with us) was the Maid of Honor. This not only was a surprise to me, but is was to B as well. She had no idea that this is what BFF wanted. So since this dinner BFF and I have hung out a few times and she has yet to mention it. I think that makes me this most irritated is that she doesn't have the balls to tell me that I really don't mean that much to her.
Last Saturday we, BFF, B-MOH, J, and of course Hubs, had breakfast. We were suppose to go wedding dress shopping, but she decided to cancel at the last minute and just get breakfast instead. So while at breakfast, we were talking about the wedding. I, of course, have no idea what's going on because I haven't been included in the planning at all. Due to being left out completely of my best friends wedding plans, I was a little upset. I was asked what was wrong and I really didn't want to get into it there so I said I was fine. After we left the restaurant, BFF had the guts to text me and ask if I was really okay. I responded with I've lost my best friend. Which she responded with, How? Really? You have to ask how? Hmmmmm maybe because I am not her MOH, maybe because I haven't been included in a damn thing with plans for the wedding, maybe because we NEVER talk anymore, maybe because we NEVER hang out anymore, maybe because she doesn't have the guts to be honest with me, this list could go on forever.
So now I have no idea what to do. Do I approach her and call her out or do I just let her come around? I kind of just want to say eff you have a nice life, but it's hard to just toss 18 years friendship out the window. I just don't know. This Friday the three of us (me, BFF, and B) are suppose to get dinner and "talk". I assume they are going to officially tell me that I am not MOH. I really really don't want to go. I don't want to waste anymore energy on all of this. I just want to put it behind me and move on. Ahhhhhh!!!!! I don't know............................
Thanks for reading, if you made it this far. I will keep you posted on what happens. "As the world turns, these are the days of our lives...."
2012 Is Happening Now
Well, the new year has begun and I never achieved anything I had set out to do last year. I don't consider myself a failure, it just means that I need to try harder this year. Yes, I am going to the steriotypical goals this year; live healthier (a.k.a. lose weight), get my finances in order, and maybe get some schooling in. Blah blah blah you know the rest of how all this goes. I will try and be better at keeping things updated around here too.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Here Comes the Holidays
So I just typed this big long blah blah blah about how weird, yet great, it was this Thanksgiving without my family and a lot more blah blah blah about all the issues that are going between us. I deleted it. Why did I delete you ask? Well.... because it's not worth it.
I made a little turkey dinner here at home. We had Valory for the day so we went to the movies, made dinner, and played Monopoly on the Wii. It was a lot of fun and very relaxing change. I am excited to see what Christmas will bring. I have a ton of shopping to do still, but I have made a decent dent.
Things have been pretty good lately. I was able to buy a new car after the Sentra died. It has been a lot of fun! Money is really tight and stressful, but things are working out. I got a new position at work in the HR department, which came with an okay raise. It's been rough learning all new things and giving up the things I have been doing for the past four year. But all in all it will be great once I will get the hang of it all. This was a pretty lame update. I will try and do better next time.
Thanks for reading! =-)
I made a little turkey dinner here at home. We had Valory for the day so we went to the movies, made dinner, and played Monopoly on the Wii. It was a lot of fun and very relaxing change. I am excited to see what Christmas will bring. I have a ton of shopping to do still, but I have made a decent dent.
Things have been pretty good lately. I was able to buy a new car after the Sentra died. It has been a lot of fun! Money is really tight and stressful, but things are working out. I got a new position at work in the HR department, which came with an okay raise. It's been rough learning all new things and giving up the things I have been doing for the past four year. But all in all it will be great once I will get the hang of it all. This was a pretty lame update. I will try and do better next time.
Thanks for reading! =-)
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Life Changing..... Maybe
Boyfriend wants out of Utah as much as a fat kid wants chocolate cake. Last year he decided he was moving to Colorado when our lease was up. Luckily, for me, he started his business and didn't have the money to move. So, we re-signed the lease for another year.
We would love to find a house with a yard for the doggies to run around. We looked into buying one, but because I am a total idiot and I wouldn't be able to qualify on the loan. So as of right this moment we are stuck here, for the moment.
Here is the life changing possibly part. He recently went to a quick trip to Oregon and re-fell in love with the state. He wants to do everything he can to move there next June once our lease ends. The real questions, do I move with him? Does he really want me to go with him? If I do move will we be able to survive there? Will we be able to find a job? What about those that I am leaving behind? I really don't know what to do.
It makes you really look into your relationship. There are endless amounts of questions to be asked and absolutely no one has the answers but you. You really have to do some soul searching and discovering those answers.
I wish it was easier. I wish I could phone a friend and find out what I am suppose to do in life and who and where I am suppose to end up with. Life isn't that hard. No matter what you do it will continue to happen around you with or without you. Pick your path...... I HATE DECISION MAKING.
We would love to find a house with a yard for the doggies to run around. We looked into buying one, but because I am a total idiot and I wouldn't be able to qualify on the loan. So as of right this moment we are stuck here, for the moment.
Here is the life changing possibly part. He recently went to a quick trip to Oregon and re-fell in love with the state. He wants to do everything he can to move there next June once our lease ends. The real questions, do I move with him? Does he really want me to go with him? If I do move will we be able to survive there? Will we be able to find a job? What about those that I am leaving behind? I really don't know what to do.
It makes you really look into your relationship. There are endless amounts of questions to be asked and absolutely no one has the answers but you. You really have to do some soul searching and discovering those answers.
I wish it was easier. I wish I could phone a friend and find out what I am suppose to do in life and who and where I am suppose to end up with. Life isn't that hard. No matter what you do it will continue to happen around you with or without you. Pick your path...... I HATE DECISION MAKING.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
So much has been going on the last while, yet it seems like nothing. Just normal run of the mill daily life, but overall is has been very busy and almost overwhelming. Where to start….
How about we go with friendship. My so called best friend has pretty much disowned me and would rather hang out with her married, yes he’s married, boyfriend than me. Which there is nothing I can do about, so there’s no sense in being upset about it; but I still am upset. It’s irritating that she blows off me all the time. Doesn’t bother letting me know she isn’t going to make it or eff off or anything. One of my biggest pet peeves, if you don’t want to do something or can’t make it, just be honest with me. Don’t just leave me high and dry and then text me an hour or so later with some dumb excuse. It’s total bs and makes me very irritated.
Okay enough ranting about that. On a happier note about friendship…. Two of my very good friend married on another on Friday, June 10, 2011. Most people would look at our history and wonder how the heck we all can be friends. To be honest, I don’t know, but I do know that it’s just how it’s supposed to be. I wish them the best of the best and know they will have a terrific life together. I am kind of envious of what they have. Someday I
will get there.
I haven’t talked to my parents or my step-sister since mid-March. My dad chose to post a not so awesome comment on Facebook and well, to keep it short, it blew up. As a result, it ruined my relationship with my family. Which overall, I am kind of okay with. I haven’t really felt part of the family in quit some time. They would always do their own thing and never include me. I know they would sum it up to me never wanting to go or me not being able to go, but why would I want to go somewhere when I know I am not
wanted. I think the hardest part is I miss my niece and nephew the most. My nephew is just a baby, but I am missing out on all that fun baby stuff. My niece and I were really close. We spend a lot of time together when she was little. But it’s their choice to said they things they did and I don’t think anything will change until someone apologizes and well, I don’t think it’ll be me because I don’t think I did anything wrong.
Well, blah blah blah. That's all at the moment. Well there is more, but not to share at this time.
Love ya'll!
How about we go with friendship. My so called best friend has pretty much disowned me and would rather hang out with her married, yes he’s married, boyfriend than me. Which there is nothing I can do about, so there’s no sense in being upset about it; but I still am upset. It’s irritating that she blows off me all the time. Doesn’t bother letting me know she isn’t going to make it or eff off or anything. One of my biggest pet peeves, if you don’t want to do something or can’t make it, just be honest with me. Don’t just leave me high and dry and then text me an hour or so later with some dumb excuse. It’s total bs and makes me very irritated.
Okay enough ranting about that. On a happier note about friendship…. Two of my very good friend married on another on Friday, June 10, 2011. Most people would look at our history and wonder how the heck we all can be friends. To be honest, I don’t know, but I do know that it’s just how it’s supposed to be. I wish them the best of the best and know they will have a terrific life together. I am kind of envious of what they have. Someday Iwill get there.
I haven’t talked to my parents or my step-sister since mid-March. My dad chose to post a not so awesome comment on Facebook and well, to keep it short, it blew up. As a result, it ruined my relationship with my family. Which overall, I am kind of okay with. I haven’t really felt part of the family in quit some time. They would always do their own thing and never include me. I know they would sum it up to me never wanting to go or me not being able to go, but why would I want to go somewhere when I know I am not
Well, blah blah blah. That's all at the moment. Well there is more, but not to share at this time.
Love ya'll!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Strut Your Mutt
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Help all those furry friends that need love and support! Animals mean a lot to me and I would be deeply grateful if you helped support me. Every small bit helps. Thank you so much in advance!
Help all those furry friends that need love and support! Animals mean a lot to me and I would be deeply grateful if you helped support me. Every small bit helps. Thank you so much in advance!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Wishes..... Maybe Just in Need of Motivation
So.... I have been thinking a lot about all the changes I wish would take place in my life. There are so many things I would like to do in my life. I feel like I doing life wrong. Hearing about and reading about all these other people's lives and I am so envious! I wish I had talent and creativity to create some of the things they create. I wish I had the money to be able to buy the things I need to have the life I dream about.
I know everyone will just say that my life can be whatever I want it to be and I just need to DO IT! Well, sadly it's so much easier said than done. I wish I had closer family and friends that shared my interests that could help do some of the things I want to do. I want more out life and I just can't seem to be able to find out how to get that more. I feel like I am stuck in this hole and have no tools to climb out.
I can't tell if I am just making excuses for everything or if I am just not meant to have a full life.
For example:
Does anyone have any motivating ideas? I will take anything you through at me!
I know everyone will just say that my life can be whatever I want it to be and I just need to DO IT! Well, sadly it's so much easier said than done. I wish I had closer family and friends that shared my interests that could help do some of the things I want to do. I want more out life and I just can't seem to be able to find out how to get that more. I feel like I am stuck in this hole and have no tools to climb out.
I can't tell if I am just making excuses for everything or if I am just not meant to have a full life.
For example:
- I would love to take all kinds of pictures of everyone and everything. I can't because I can't afford a nice camera. I am not very creative and can't take pictures well. I don't have the money to buy a photo editing software, not to mention I don't have the first clue how to use it.
- I wish I could cook better. I admire so many people for their creative cooking skills. It's so hard to cook for just two people without out having a million left overs and a lot of times I am actually cooking for just one because Travis works nights. I can't afford all the gizmos and gadgets that go along with cooking or the ingredients for the food.
- I would love to be thinner. Over the last 5 years I have gained a horrible amount a weight. I have all these ideas, but I never follow through with them. Back to the cooking, it's hard to cook healthy and eat better. I lack a massive amount of motivation. By the time I get off work I just want to relax. I don't want to go to the gym. I sit on my butt all day long in my office.
- Have a really awesome blog. Full of pictures and exciting things to say. I just don't know how.
Does anyone have any motivating ideas? I will take anything you through at me!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Surprise Birthday Trip
This year I turned the big 25!! It was kind of a weird concept to think about. I am a quarter century old!! I have moved into another age bracket. I don't know. I know I am just overreacting, but it was a hard one.
This year my birthday was on a Saturday. Went into the day with nothing planned. Found out Travis didn't work until 4:00 PM, so that was awesome! I ended up going to lunch with my Grandma, my aunts, and my cousin. It was fantastic! I love those gals so much. So, all and all it was a chill day. I don't really know what I was expecting, but it was just another day really. Relaxed all evening and then Travis came home around 11:00 PM. I kept wondering what he got me for my birthday. I didn't want to ask because that's just rude, so I just got to keep waiting. As the night went on, he says to me, "Sorry I didn't get you anything for your birthday." In which I reply, "You really didn't get me anything?" He says, "Nope, I didn't have time. Sorry!" I reply, "Ummm.... you had the last 364 days to get me something. What do you mean you didn't have time?" He just says, "Sorry!" So, I am a little ticked, but there's not point in getting all that upset. In the back of my mind I thought he might have somthing up his sleve.
So we get up, pack up our bags. Me, packing everything because I don't know what to expect. Load up the dogs and we hit the road. Luckly though, he was called into work for a couple hours, so that gave me some time to get some things that I thought we might need. We dropped the dogs off at his mom's grab lunch and around 1:30 PM hit the road to I don't know where.
We headed South. I knew it wasn't Vegas because he said it wasn't anywhere I would guess. We just kept driving...
Travis, thrilled to be driving Me, excited to find out where we'll end up
The scenery
So, we just kept driving, and driving and driving. We stopped a few times, I drove a little. Still no clue where we are going.
Nija Turtle Car.... too awesome not to take a piture of
I was a fun drive. We talked and listened to music. It was fun just to be together. I was driving and he told me to head to St. Geoge. Once we arrived in St. George we pulled off to stretch, potty, and switch drivers. We hit the road again. About an hour later, Travis says that he is going to pull off and use the bathroom again at the Casa Blanca. I respond with okay, but there is a Walmart across the street, why don't we go there. He just didn't want to. At this point I am getting a little suspicious.
We walk in and start wandering around trying to find the bathroom. I spot and let him know it's over here. He says no it's over here and dragged me towards the registration desk.
Guess what? We checked in!!! We had so much fun! I didn't win any money at all, but we swam, for massages, relaxed in the spa, and went bowling. It was fantastic!!
I love you Travis! Thank you for making it awesome!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Slacker.....
So.... as for this whole new Katrina thing..... I have been a slacker. I haven't done a whole lot with it. But some reacent conversation have made me really motivated. Things are going to happen if it kills me.
Today I joined a gym, I don't really have the money for it, but I know I need it. I am going to plan meals better and heathier. It's time to get serious! I am going to be my best to work out for at least 30 minutes every day, 2 hours max. I would love any company if you are up to it.
So as of right now, the standings are about the same:
Weight - 233 pounds
Month Goal - Lose 10 pounds
Life Goal - Weigh 135 pounds
Wish me luck!
Today I joined a gym, I don't really have the money for it, but I know I need it. I am going to plan meals better and heathier. It's time to get serious! I am going to be my best to work out for at least 30 minutes every day, 2 hours max. I would love any company if you are up to it.
So as of right now, the standings are about the same:
Weight - 233 pounds
Month Goal - Lose 10 pounds
Life Goal - Weigh 135 pounds
Wish me luck!
Friday, March 4, 2011
New Katrina in the Works
A few days ago I was getting ready for work one morning. I just gotten out of the shower and was in my bedroom getting dressed. I walked over to my closet to grab my slacks and top. I happen to glanced over at the full length mirror that's near the closet. I was in my bra and undies...... all I could see what a whole lot of nasty! I was astonished at what my reflection in the mirror. I have really let myself go. That was a moment I decided I really need to do something. I get back to where I should be.
So I thought what a better motivation than to embarrass myself to the whole world as motivation. I am going to post weekly updates on where I am at and how I am doing. As of now, it's started off slow. I did work out on the Wii Fit for and hour and fifteen mintues. I know that's not a lot, but it's a start. I have been working on eating heathier and cutting back soda. That's my biggest problem. Devil soda!!!
So here is what I look like now: Currently weighing 233 pounds.
So I thought what a better motivation than to embarrass myself to the whole world as motivation. I am going to post weekly updates on where I am at and how I am doing. As of now, it's started off slow. I did work out on the Wii Fit for and hour and fifteen mintues. I know that's not a lot, but it's a start. I have been working on eating heathier and cutting back soda. That's my biggest problem. Devil soda!!!
So here is what I look like now: Currently weighing 233 pounds.
Idea goal weight is 140 pounds. That won't happen for some time. So short term goal is to be 220 pounds on April 1, 2011.
Wish me luck!!!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Friendship
Friendship - the relationship between people that call themselves......
I have recently come to find that I really don't have friends any more. It seems they have all drifted away to be obsorbed into their own lives. Call me selfish, but it really makes me sad. You should be able to manage time between all that need your time.
Being a friend means being there when I need you. Being a friend means hanging out with each other. Being a friend means being honest with one another. Being a friend means not flaking out when you make plans.
I miss the old relationships I had with certain people. Yes, don't get me wrong, I have friends, but I lost my best friends. I don't know what happened. I guess life did.
I have recently come to find that I really don't have friends any more. It seems they have all drifted away to be obsorbed into their own lives. Call me selfish, but it really makes me sad. You should be able to manage time between all that need your time.
Being a friend means being there when I need you. Being a friend means hanging out with each other. Being a friend means being honest with one another. Being a friend means not flaking out when you make plans.
I miss the old relationships I had with certain people. Yes, don't get me wrong, I have friends, but I lost my best friends. I don't know what happened. I guess life did.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
How I Got Where I am Today.... Part 12 The Now
So after a few skipped over details later here we are. Travis and I moved in together June 8, 2009. We have a wonderful cozy town home in South Salt Lake. We live with our two dogs and Valory comes to visit ever so often.
As of right now, I have no idea where this will lead. Every day is a new adventure that I look forward to living. ;
Putting a brief on right now, I work at UPS, he works at Famous Dave's and runs his own business. The dogs, well they are dogs and don't do much. That's about all that is happen in the present.
Now that everyone is all caught up on my life I can blog about the random garbage that happens in my day to day life.
Thank you all for listening and never be afraid to ask me any questions about anything.
Let the randomness begin..........
As of right now, I have no idea where this will lead. Every day is a new adventure that I look forward to living. ;
Putting a brief on right now, I work at UPS, he works at Famous Dave's and runs his own business. The dogs, well they are dogs and don't do much. That's about all that is happen in the present.
Now that everyone is all caught up on my life I can blog about the random garbage that happens in my day to day life.
Thank you all for listening and never be afraid to ask me any questions about anything.
Let the randomness begin..........
Friday, January 28, 2011
How I Got Where I am Today.... Part 11 The Girlfriend Ring
I am not sure on the exact day, but I would say sometime the beginning of April we were wandering around Fashion Place Mall. We stop at a kiosk and look at the jewelry. I was looking at the different rings and he asks me which one do I like. I tell him and he asks the lady working if we can look at them. So we are looking at them and I am trying them on and I fall in love with a silver ring with flowers on it. He asks if it fits, I say yes, but it's only on my left ring finger (you know the one that the wedding ring eventually goes on). He says I don't mind if you wear it on that finger. I am just looking at him in awe. My head is spinning and I am trying to figure out what is going on. So he tells the lady he would like to buy it. I get all giddy. She takes it and shines it up and hands it back to me. He rips it out of my hand and says that's my ring. I was shocked and didn't know what to say, so I just let it go. We left the mall after that and never spoke of it again.
April 25, 2008, it was a Friday. I had made plans to go over to Travis's house and hang out. I get off work and had to run home and get somethings. I tried to get a hold of him to make sure that he was home and remembered we had plans, but he wasn't answering me. I was kind of irritated. I decided to just head up there any way and hope he remembered.
At the time I was living in Murray and he was living in Bountiful. Under normal conditions it's about a 30 minute drive from my house to his. On this rather warm April evening I jump in my not air conditioned because it's broken black car and head up there. So this time of day is rush hour, so traffic is backed up and moving very slowly. I still can't get a hold of Travis and I am thinking if I drive all the way up there and he isn't there I am gonna be so pissed. And I am really hot due to the black non-air conditioned car. Grrrrr.....
About an hour later I pull into the driveway. I was happy to see his car, but irritated beyond belief about everything else. So I get out and pound on his door. No answer. I pound harder. Buddy, his dog is barking. He finally come to the door, half asleep. I am mad. I storm in and plop on the couch and watch TV and try and calm down. He hollers from the other room to come here, I respond no you come here. He hollers again, I respond no. He finally comes in and grabs my hand and pulls me off the couch. I grouchily say What! He then gets down on one knee, (my heart races and my head spins) and says, "So, you make real happy and stuff. Will you be my Girlfriend?" I am speechless. It was so adorable. I smile every time I think about it. I said "YES!" He stands up and gives me a kiss. Twitterppated!
How I Got Where I am Today.... Part 10
So... now what happens? Well Travis texted me and we chatted for a while. We decided to meet up at Chili's to get some food and catch up. It was a busy Friday night and there I sat at the table.... alone. He was late, but didn't stand me up. We shared a Sampler and talked about what has happened in our lives and what we are doing now. We then finished eating and decided to go over to Hollywood Connection and that just down the street. We had an absolute blast!!!! We played mini golf and dumb arcade games. We laughed and ate Ice cream. It was awesome. I still have the pen (that doesn't write) that he got me with his tickets. So what started as just hang out and catch up turned into a date.
Food + an activity = a date. And there is where it began....
We kept chatting here and there. We went on another date to the old bowling alley on State Street. We had a ton of fun then too. That was the first time I got to see a bit of the real kooky Travis. We were goofing off and drinking beer, laughing and just enjoying each other. We kept bribing each other to get a strike. He told me he would kiss me if I got one. I got one and kissed my hand, then the cheek, and I was doing the same with him. We never made it to the lips..... until we were in the parking lot saying goodbye.
After that I was looking at his MySpace page and thought, "Wow, he has a lot of hussies on here. He is just a player. I don't really want to play games." So, I didn't talk to him as much and kinda killed to relationship. About a week or so later and realized I kind of missed him. I didn't really have anything else going so I decided what the hell. I am young and I am going to have some fun and just date. I don't need to "with" someone to have a good time. So I started texting him again. We decided to meet up and get Ice Cream. Once we were done we walked over to Barns and Noble and looked around, then went over to Best Buy and pretended to buy appliances for our new house. It was so funny.
Over the next couple months we hung out a lot. I would go up to his house in Bountiful and we would just hang out. As time when on it seemed we were only hanging out with each other and no one else. So much for the just dating thing.
Next up... The Girlfriend Ring
Food + an activity = a date. And there is where it began....
We kept chatting here and there. We went on another date to the old bowling alley on State Street. We had a ton of fun then too. That was the first time I got to see a bit of the real kooky Travis. We were goofing off and drinking beer, laughing and just enjoying each other. We kept bribing each other to get a strike. He told me he would kiss me if I got one. I got one and kissed my hand, then the cheek, and I was doing the same with him. We never made it to the lips..... until we were in the parking lot saying goodbye.
After that I was looking at his MySpace page and thought, "Wow, he has a lot of hussies on here. He is just a player. I don't really want to play games." So, I didn't talk to him as much and kinda killed to relationship. About a week or so later and realized I kind of missed him. I didn't really have anything else going so I decided what the hell. I am young and I am going to have some fun and just date. I don't need to "with" someone to have a good time. So I started texting him again. We decided to meet up and get Ice Cream. Once we were done we walked over to Barns and Noble and looked around, then went over to Best Buy and pretended to buy appliances for our new house. It was so funny.
Over the next couple months we hung out a lot. I would go up to his house in Bountiful and we would just hang out. As time when on it seemed we were only hanging out with each other and no one else. So much for the just dating thing.
Next up... The Girlfriend Ring
Friday, November 26, 2010
How I Got Where I am Today.... Part 9 The Story of Travis
I know there is a lot I rushed through and didn't go into a whole lot of detail about. The main reason for that is that I have a feeling I am boring you all and you would rather eat broken glass than read more, but if you have an interest in a certain part, questions, and/or comments about anything, don't hesitate to ask. I am an open book or rather an open blog. =^)
So, we are now in mid-January 2008. One of my dear best friends, Bonnie, were hanging out one night. I had taken her home and we were sitting in my car talking. We were talking about girl stuff and whatever else. She mentions that she was talking to an old friend of ours Travis.
Here's the story with Travis:
Summer between 7th and 8th grade (1999). My best friend at the time, Jenn, was "going out" with this guy Travis who was 2 years older than her. He came over and hung out with a few times and then they broke up. For some reason he kept in touch with me. We would talk on the phone all the time and the for whatever reason he decided he like me and "asked me out". You as much as two Jr. High kids can "go out". In all honesty I really didn't like him. He was super skinny and kinda goofy looking, but it was exciting because he was older. So, we would talk on and off on the phone. He rode is bike down to my house one day. Which is kind of a hefty ride. He brought his friend Derek over too. So we just kinda hung out and talked, Shari was there with us. Then when they were about to leave, he pushed Shari and Derek outside and closed the door, pushed me against it and gave me a nice romantic kiss. It was in fact my FIRST kiss. And is was pretty awesome for a first kiss.
So, after that we didn't ever see each other, due to being so young and not having cars. We would talk on the phone every now and again, but eventually we just drifted apart and pretty much called is quites. But over the next few years we would talk on the phone occasionally and we would run into one another randomly. It was kind of strange how we always ended up popping into one another's life one way or another.
Few years later, I would guess my Junior year of High School, Travis and I were talking. He was single and was asking if I had any single friends he might be interested in. (At the time I was seeing Richard. Which reminds me, I don't know know why I skipped over him. He played a big part in my life too. I guess it was because he was in the middle of the drama at home. Sorry Richard!) Anyway, the only person I could think of was my best friend Bonnie. So I hooked them up and they dated for quite some time. I am not sure what happened between them or why it ended but as you can see it did.
So that pretty much brings us back to where I started. Bonnie was telling me that she had been talking to Travis not to long ago. I, being single at the time, asked is he was single and that she should give him my number. She said she would, and that's how we started.... again.
It's really kind of strange how someone can pop in and out of your life for so long.
So, we are now in mid-January 2008. One of my dear best friends, Bonnie, were hanging out one night. I had taken her home and we were sitting in my car talking. We were talking about girl stuff and whatever else. She mentions that she was talking to an old friend of ours Travis.
Here's the story with Travis:
Summer between 7th and 8th grade (1999). My best friend at the time, Jenn, was "going out" with this guy Travis who was 2 years older than her. He came over and hung out with a few times and then they broke up. For some reason he kept in touch with me. We would talk on the phone all the time and the for whatever reason he decided he like me and "asked me out". You as much as two Jr. High kids can "go out". In all honesty I really didn't like him. He was super skinny and kinda goofy looking, but it was exciting because he was older. So, we would talk on and off on the phone. He rode is bike down to my house one day. Which is kind of a hefty ride. He brought his friend Derek over too. So we just kinda hung out and talked, Shari was there with us. Then when they were about to leave, he pushed Shari and Derek outside and closed the door, pushed me against it and gave me a nice romantic kiss. It was in fact my FIRST kiss. And is was pretty awesome for a first kiss.
So, after that we didn't ever see each other, due to being so young and not having cars. We would talk on the phone every now and again, but eventually we just drifted apart and pretty much called is quites. But over the next few years we would talk on the phone occasionally and we would run into one another randomly. It was kind of strange how we always ended up popping into one another's life one way or another.
Few years later, I would guess my Junior year of High School, Travis and I were talking. He was single and was asking if I had any single friends he might be interested in. (At the time I was seeing Richard. Which reminds me, I don't know know why I skipped over him. He played a big part in my life too. I guess it was because he was in the middle of the drama at home. Sorry Richard!) Anyway, the only person I could think of was my best friend Bonnie. So I hooked them up and they dated for quite some time. I am not sure what happened between them or why it ended but as you can see it did.
So that pretty much brings us back to where I started. Bonnie was telling me that she had been talking to Travis not to long ago. I, being single at the time, asked is he was single and that she should give him my number. She said she would, and that's how we started.... again.
It's really kind of strange how someone can pop in and out of your life for so long.
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