Life is ceratinly an adventure. There are so many ups and downs, so many challenges, rewards, and just straight up garbage.
I don't know where I stand today, nor do I know where I will stand tomorrow. What I do know is that I am going to make the most of what I have and continue to strive for more.
My dad and I got into a horrible fight a few weeks ago. It started with what a peice of crap Travis was for me and how he can't believe I am wasting my time. Later I found out that really what he wants is someone that can take care of me. Someone that will give me the best in everything. He doesn't know if Travis is that person, but he wants me to think before rushing into anything. I know Travis won't be someone that will be rich and be able to take care of me and I will never have to work again. I don't want that person. Yes I would like to finiancially stable and not have to stress how this bill or that bill will get paid. I don't think it should be his job to do that. I think we should be able to do it together. Work as a team. I thought that's what relationships and marriages were all about it working as a team? I know in the long run my dad just wants me to be happy, I am his baby and he wants to make sure I have the very best of everything. I appreciate him worry about me. But he does need to allow me to live my life the way I want to live it. I know in the long run he will, but he wanted me to know he thoughts.
Back to Travis...... I have no idea where this is going. Is that a bad thing? I mean I am extreemly happy. Yes, there are thing that I would like to see changed, but overall I am very happy. I am not 100% sure if he is the one that I am supposed to be with or the one I am suppose to marry. I have no idea. I have no idea whether I am the woman he wants to spend the rest of his life with either. I do know what we only want to do this once and if that means waiting years and years to make sure that we are meant to be, then I will wait. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be sure. Whatever happens, happens for a reason.
