Holly cow, Thanksgiving is next week!!! This year has just flown by and I have no idea why. I don't know if it's because "the world will end on 12/21/12 or if it's just been a year full of fun stuff. It's amazing what can happen in what... like 9 months since my last post.
In the last post it was about we fixing my friendship with one of my long time friends. Well, that didn't last long at all. It only got severly worse and as of right now, there is no friendship to speak of. I can't decide how I feel about it all. I want answers, but I don't want to speak to her. I fear that if we do speak it'll all get swept under the carpet, we'll think everything is just fine for a few weeks and then all of a sudden shit will hit the fan once again. I suppose I should fill you in on everything so that way you know where I am coming from.
I will make this short and as painless as possible....
Well, pretty much us being okay was really never the case. I didn't care enough about her relationship and wasn't supportive enough so I was demoted again to just a bridesmaid. After several emails back and forth it came down to it's all about her and her needs and who gives a rats ass about my feelings, but whatever. I thought maybe I was being selfish. The Wendover trip for her Bachelorette party was a very expensive waste of time. Our group was divided and it was us and them and they were pissed at us for the entire trip. The wedding came, which was suppose to take place in Vegas, but I was informed that it was canceled, but would take place the following weeked and her aunt's house.It was all a joke. And well that was the end of it. Not much hanging out or speaking since. Now here comes the really good part. Which it's something I should have seen coming and in the back of my mind I knew it had. A picture is posted on Facebook of the happy couple at what looks like a wedding setting. I asked if they got married again, no response. So I text her and ask and she responds, "We got married in Vegas." WTF???? I was so pissed off I couldn't respond. I still don't know what to say to her. I have a ton of questions and would like an explaination, but that would require confronting her. So it comes down to do I confront her and have everything either blow up or get swept under the carpet, or do I just blow it all off and move on with my life?
I am really stuggling with what to do. I guess in a way I am in total shock about it all. How you do flush 18+ years of friendship down the drain? Not to mention taking my other so called best friend with her. Ugh it's all so stupid and I don't know why I am dwelling on it all. I either need to confront her or move on. It's really not that difficult!
