I know everyone will just say that my life can be whatever I want it to be and I just need to DO IT! Well, sadly it's so much easier said than done. I wish I had closer family and friends that shared my interests that could help do some of the things I want to do. I want more out life and I just can't seem to be able to find out how to get that more. I feel like I am stuck in this hole and have no tools to climb out.
I can't tell if I am just making excuses for everything or if I am just not meant to have a full life.
For example:
- I would love to take all kinds of pictures of everyone and everything. I can't because I can't afford a nice camera. I am not very creative and can't take pictures well. I don't have the money to buy a photo editing software, not to mention I don't have the first clue how to use it.
- I wish I could cook better. I admire so many people for their creative cooking skills. It's so hard to cook for just two people without out having a million left overs and a lot of times I am actually cooking for just one because Travis works nights. I can't afford all the gizmos and gadgets that go along with cooking or the ingredients for the food.
- I would love to be thinner. Over the last 5 years I have gained a horrible amount a weight. I have all these ideas, but I never follow through with them. Back to the cooking, it's hard to cook healthy and eat better. I lack a massive amount of motivation. By the time I get off work I just want to relax. I don't want to go to the gym. I sit on my butt all day long in my office.
- Have a really awesome blog. Full of pictures and exciting things to say. I just don't know how.
Does anyone have any motivating ideas? I will take anything you through at me!
